4evacraze

many have asked n many have answered… many have forgot n many have ignore… many have try n many have fail….

many have i given out… but non taken back…

special thanks to weng luan n kuan chin for the box u gave.. thanks to joanne for the collection u had added into… thanks to reuben for the care n wishes tat u gave so much.. thanks to PH for knowing how i feel… thanks to david for at least asking n planning to buy me something..

wat is tis all about…? my 21st birthday.. 10 days had passed since my birthday.. it had came n gone as if tat it wasn’t my birthday at all… as if if tat day was juz another day.. yup.. it was.. n i guess it had always been.. at least tis time i’ve set my heart not to expect anything at all.. n really nth at all.. not even a present.. not even a meal…. not even a hug tat says we’re here for ur birthday.. well… 10 days had pass… its too late dy… heart had crushed… tears had cried… hope had gone…

y make a fuss about it when u r not gonna do anything about it….. saying tis n tat n everything about my birthday be4 it happens like u really mean it…. but… i guess not… although im far away at tat time… n i were always reluctant to go sandakan becoz of tis… but now… i guess i would be even more crushed if i were back here… at least over there i get sincere wishes from ppl there, went to c crocodile n lots of things to do get tis birthday ting out of my head…

y is it such a big deal to me… it has never been.. until i finally ask the question….. where have all my frens been?

~something i’ve ponder for long.. before n after….. it has always been deep down inside me.. but words disappear when i think bout it….. ~